Sometimes

Sometimes I wish my brain would turn off.
Sometimes I wish I was good enough for him to love.
Sometimes I wish there were more genuine people in this world.
Sometimes I think too much-- this is one of those times.
Sometimes I wish I knew the answers to my random questions.
Sometimes I rant for no reason-- this is one of those times.
Sometimes I still love him.
Sometimes I don't.
Sometimes I want to be Polynesian.
Sometimes I don't.
Sometimes I miss my friends.
Sometimes I don't.
Sometimes there's always a sometimes.

Chocolate

So, there's this boy, we'll call him chocolate. He's a very cute boy, and a very sweet boy. He's my crush! And I'm so happy about it!
I'm so happy that I'm happy. Being sad all the time was harshing my mellow. Haha. But life has been so good to me lately. Heavenly Father has been so good to me. And I definitely don't feel like I deserve it. But I know that if I keep up living righteously, he will bless me more! And I'm so so grateful for the blessings he gives me!
But anyway, chocolate has FINALLY taken interest in me. Which used to seem like wishful thinking after 5 years of secretly crushing! We get to see each other Friday night after I get off work! Still working out the smelliness issue. Because work makes me REEK!!! But I really hope we stick to it. :) I'll keep you all posted!!

Boo.

She is, in fact, my best friend. :)

Life.

You know when you're going on in life, you don't really think that the best person that ever came into your existence would ever leave? Well that all changed for me. But I have a great support system behind me. My family and friends are so amazing. They've been so great and I can hardly thank them enough. But I know that the one person who could make it all better isn't going to. And that moving on is the best thing for me. I know one day I'll meet the man of my dreams. He'll blow anything I've ever had out of the water. And that gives me comfort even tho I haven't wanted to hear it. Who knows! Life is unexpected. And my life is in God's gentle, loving hands. He knows what's in store for me. And I'm excited to find out! He knows what I need. And I love Him with every fiber of my being! I couldn't imagine myself without His hand in my life. I love Him.