Be THAT Couple..

As I was sitting outside of the temple this fine evening, I decided something. Out of everything in this world, I want to be that married couple that comes walking out of the temple looking more in love than they did walking in. I made a promise to myself that I will be THAT couple :)

Apologies and Forgiveness...

Oh my goodness. I almost had a heart attack yesterday. No big deal! Metaphorically speaking. Ok rewind. Let's start from the beginning. Yesterday in Sunday school we were asked a serious question.

"If you only had two more days left to live, what would you do? Who would you  see?"

Well, this question struck me hard. Because you see I'd had this thought of what I would do that whole week before. So because this was brought up on this particular day, I decided to actually ACT upon my thoughts. So I sent a text and hoped he would reply. And to my surprise, he DID! My heart jumped out of my chest, down my throat to my stomach. I was so stunned when he asked if I wanted to talk on the phone. But I could hardly contain how I felt. I was so overcome with joy! This is what I had been waiting for, for longer than I can remember. I had been feeling so down and sad because of things I'd said and done to this individual. As the phone rang, my heart was pounding harder than it had in a LOOONNNG time! He answered and we talked as if nothing had been wrong. He's always been one that I could talk to so easily. So then, I got down to the nitty gritty. I DID IT!! I apologized and its like a load of stress had been lifted from my shoulders. I told him how bad I felt and how truly sorry I was, I asked for forgiveness. He said, "of course i forgive you!" Music to my ears. We caught up like you would with a long time friend who you haven't seen for ages. Which let's be honest, that's kind of how it felt. Then we ended the conversation on a good note! Something that hadn't happened for a long time. It felt AMAZING! I've been on what I like to call a spiritual high of happiness? Yep, thats it. :) And it feels SO good. 

I hope you enjoyed this as much as I did in the moment! 

ohhhh man...

i miss my friends..... :[

I love to write....

I love to write.

More than anything.

I can write what I feel.

I can write nonsense.

I can write what I think.

I can write to just write.

I love to write.

I love to write names,

places,

shapes,

things,

ANYTHING! 

Most of all. 

I love to write letters.

My pride and joy.

Letters. 

To people in different parts of this big wide world.

I can put whatever personality I want into it, 

and I couldn't be happier.

It's such a blessing! 

Hard Times

I have a new song to keep me going.

It's the best!

"Keep Your Head Up" -Andy Grammer

I've been waiting on the sunset 

Bills on my mindset 

I can get deny theyre getting high 

Higher than my income 

My income's breadcrumbs 

I've been trying to survive 

The glow that the sun gives 

Right around sunset 

Helps me realize 

This is just a journey 

Drop your worries 

You are gonna turn out fine. 

Oh, you'll turn out fine. 

Fine, oh, you'll turn out fine. 

But you gotta keep your head up, oh, 

And you can let your hair down, eh. 

you gotta keep your head up, oh, 

And you can let your hair down, eh. 

I know it's hard, know its hard, 

To remember sometimes, 

But you gotta keep your head up, oh, 

And you can let your hair down, eh. 

I've got my hands in my pockets, 

Kickin these rocks. 

Its kinda hard to watch this life go by. 

I'm buyin in the skeptics, 

Skeptics mess with, the confidence in my eyes 

I'm seeing all the angles, starts to get tangled 

I start to comprimise 

My life and the purpose. 

Is it all worth it, 

Am I gonna turn out fine? 

Oh, you'll turn out fine. 

Fine, oh, you'll turn out fine. 

But you gotta keep your head up, oh, 

And you can let your hair down, eh. 

you gotta keep your head up, oh, 

And you can let your hair down, eh. 

I know it's hard, know its hard, 

To remember sometimes, 

But you gotta keep your head up, oh, 

And you can let your hair down, eh. 

Only rainbows after rain 

The sun will always come again. 

Its a circle, circling, 

Around again, it comes around again. 

Only rainbows after rain 

The sun will always come again. 

Its a circle, circling, 

Around again, it comes around, 

But you gotta keep your head up, oh, 

And you can let your hair down, eh. 

you gotta keep your head up, oh, 

And you can let your hair down, eh. 

I know it's hard, know its hard 

To remember sometimes, 

But you gotta keep your head up, oh, 

And you can let your hair down, eh. 

Keep your head up, oh, 

And you can let your hair down, eh. 

Keep your head up, oh, 

And you can let your hair down, eh. 

Keep your head up, oh, 

And you can let your hair down.